I think I am drained

Drained both emotionally and mentally. One reason I am never forgiving my room mates ..ever !!

I really wonder why am I the way I am? I take too minute details about things to heart and become sad in an instant.Even though I may never show it but inside of me I cry and cry hard.

Here are a few things which make me wonder-

1. People make plans.Right? They do. Sometimes they involve you and sometimes they don't.So what?? Why do you get sad if you are not involved?Well I should not be sad but I am.Again because everyone knew but me.But hey I should be used to this by now, shouldn't I? Here is the problem though whenever I have plans (it's really seldom, but ya sometimes I do make plans) I make sure no freaking body is left out. Why do they do this to me? I get sad because I expect them to do the same but one should know better not to expect anything from anybody.


2. Why am I sad if someone does not want to talk to me? I should not be sad, but I am. Well here is the reason I gave those assholes I called friends everything , helped them in every way possible and they never respected me , treated me like dirt. I sometimes even laugh at myself for considering them people as 'friends'. Its not that I have not tried talking to them but when you feel unwanted I find it better to walk away and with it get sad. I

3. OK so two people are standing a third one comes by and asks the first person why or why not is he doing what he is doing? They don't ask you? They just you know casually asked the first person.Why would you take it to heart and just feel kind of sad? See I do.Why ? I have no idea.


4. Oh and I also realized something today ... I am not in the circle , I don't this I ever was. Hopefully I will learn from this and move on . I know I can find better people to call friends. You know what I know this for sure .. the only people who would give a fuck if I were to die tomorrow are in India and not here.Screw this place man !!

Hah with all this I guess I deserve to feel the way I feel and isn't it right that I wonder why am I the way I am? Why cannot I not give a shit about all the above things?. Right now if only I could have just 2 people with me right here, right now I will probably be the happiest person in the world.It wont happen though.Hey I am not a pessimist and trust me you will not find an optimist like me but why I say it is impossible is it is geographically impossible.

This blog is the only way I can convey how I feel so I just write it whenever I feel like I should.This is just one of those awkward moments.Don't worry it too shall pass.

Goodbye Adrienne GLHF!!

Hey there strangers...Hows it going?

So this is going to be short and precise. I have to wish Adrienne a good luck and a wonderful summer ahead of her.She is moving to Wisconsin for the summer for some kinda job(wherein she shall be working freaking 80 hours a week!! You gotta be kidding me). Unfortunately we could not give you a farewell party like Colby(damn these finals).

Hey Adrienne I know you will do great keep smiling, keep singing(seriously you rock),stay awesome and just rock your god damn job and then when fall comes all of us shall go to Carowinds/Six Flags and enjoy as much as we did this Spring.Hey and one more thing... good luck with your sky diving. I am sure it's gonna be fun.Every second that I spent with you all has been nothing short of awesome and so worth it.

So here is to a rocking summer and looking forward to an awesome fall.Good luck and Have fun!!

And I am going to post this link to your FB and you better give it a read!!!LoL jk.

Winner Winner Awesome Dinner!!

Hey there strangers.. Hows it going??

OK so as the end nears I guess we just want to cherish every single second.Now you must be wondering what end am I talking about? Well you see after this semester is over we and The Three Musketeers (Nora(who likes Adele) ,Adrienne and Heather) well I just cooked up this name for em right now, like by cook up I mean I have never called them with this name before,will never be living in the neighborhood.

So today was our dinner night.We cooked pulses and rice for them and they got enchiladas, and an awesome cheesecake for dessert and by god I loved the dinner I had today.

Here is the thing though , I never ever thought that we would become so close friends with them.I mean I am friends with more people who do not go to Clemson and less with people who go there.I am talking numbers here.They introduced us to so many people and the time we have spent with them has been nothing short of awesome , fun and really really memorable.I seriously wish that this end never comes but again as they say all good things come in short packages and come to end sooner that you expect.I really do not know how many times have I said this and how many times am I going to say it again after this but those three really are really awesome people and I totally feel blessed by god to have friends like them. I mean really you have to know them to know that how jolly, caring and happy (I am running out of adjectives) they are.

Spring semester of 2011 has to go down in my memory books as the best I ever had and probably the best I ever will have in my life and in part the credit as to go to The Three Musketeers mentioned above.

I truly wish all three of them , in whatever they do , wherever they go all the very best because I know awesome people like them are surely going to be successful in any thing they do.God bless them and fulfill every single wish they have (well I would not mind him fulfilling a couple of mine too actually :P ha ha ha)

And before I get mushy here is something to laugh at

Q:What Kind of dog tells time?

A: A watch dog

Hah I bet you are laughing to..because I am rolling on the floor laughing my ass off and somehow still managing to type. ;)

I will write to you all tomorrow.