I think I am drained

Drained both emotionally and mentally. One reason I am never forgiving my room mates ..ever !!

I really wonder why am I the way I am? I take too minute details about things to heart and become sad in an instant.Even though I may never show it but inside of me I cry and cry hard.

Here are a few things which make me wonder-

1. People make plans.Right? They do. Sometimes they involve you and sometimes they don't.So what?? Why do you get sad if you are not involved?Well I should not be sad but I am.Again because everyone knew but me.But hey I should be used to this by now, shouldn't I? Here is the problem though whenever I have plans (it's really seldom, but ya sometimes I do make plans) I make sure no freaking body is left out. Why do they do this to me? I get sad because I expect them to do the same but one should know better not to expect anything from anybody.


2. Why am I sad if someone does not want to talk to me? I should not be sad, but I am. Well here is the reason I gave those assholes I called friends everything , helped them in every way possible and they never respected me , treated me like dirt. I sometimes even laugh at myself for considering them people as 'friends'. Its not that I have not tried talking to them but when you feel unwanted I find it better to walk away and with it get sad. I

3. OK so two people are standing a third one comes by and asks the first person why or why not is he doing what he is doing? They don't ask you? They just you know casually asked the first person.Why would you take it to heart and just feel kind of sad? See I do.Why ? I have no idea.


4. Oh and I also realized something today ... I am not in the circle , I don't this I ever was. Hopefully I will learn from this and move on . I know I can find better people to call friends. You know what I know this for sure .. the only people who would give a fuck if I were to die tomorrow are in India and not here.Screw this place man !!

Hah with all this I guess I deserve to feel the way I feel and isn't it right that I wonder why am I the way I am? Why cannot I not give a shit about all the above things?. Right now if only I could have just 2 people with me right here, right now I will probably be the happiest person in the world.It wont happen though.Hey I am not a pessimist and trust me you will not find an optimist like me but why I say it is impossible is it is geographically impossible.

This blog is the only way I can convey how I feel so I just write it whenever I feel like I should.This is just one of those awkward moments.Don't worry it too shall pass.

Goodbye Adrienne GLHF!!

Hey there strangers...Hows it going?

So this is going to be short and precise. I have to wish Adrienne a good luck and a wonderful summer ahead of her.She is moving to Wisconsin for the summer for some kinda job(wherein she shall be working freaking 80 hours a week!! You gotta be kidding me). Unfortunately we could not give you a farewell party like Colby(damn these finals).

Hey Adrienne I know you will do great keep smiling, keep singing(seriously you rock),stay awesome and just rock your god damn job and then when fall comes all of us shall go to Carowinds/Six Flags and enjoy as much as we did this Spring.Hey and one more thing... good luck with your sky diving. I am sure it's gonna be fun.Every second that I spent with you all has been nothing short of awesome and so worth it.

So here is to a rocking summer and looking forward to an awesome fall.Good luck and Have fun!!

And I am going to post this link to your FB and you better give it a read!!!LoL jk.

Winner Winner Awesome Dinner!!

Hey there strangers.. Hows it going??

OK so as the end nears I guess we just want to cherish every single second.Now you must be wondering what end am I talking about? Well you see after this semester is over we and The Three Musketeers (Nora(who likes Adele) ,Adrienne and Heather) well I just cooked up this name for em right now, like by cook up I mean I have never called them with this name before,will never be living in the neighborhood.

So today was our dinner night.We cooked pulses and rice for them and they got enchiladas, and an awesome cheesecake for dessert and by god I loved the dinner I had today.

Here is the thing though , I never ever thought that we would become so close friends with them.I mean I am friends with more people who do not go to Clemson and less with people who go there.I am talking numbers here.They introduced us to so many people and the time we have spent with them has been nothing short of awesome , fun and really really memorable.I seriously wish that this end never comes but again as they say all good things come in short packages and come to end sooner that you expect.I really do not know how many times have I said this and how many times am I going to say it again after this but those three really are really awesome people and I totally feel blessed by god to have friends like them. I mean really you have to know them to know that how jolly, caring and happy (I am running out of adjectives) they are.

Spring semester of 2011 has to go down in my memory books as the best I ever had and probably the best I ever will have in my life and in part the credit as to go to The Three Musketeers mentioned above.

I truly wish all three of them , in whatever they do , wherever they go all the very best because I know awesome people like them are surely going to be successful in any thing they do.God bless them and fulfill every single wish they have (well I would not mind him fulfilling a couple of mine too actually :P ha ha ha)

And before I get mushy here is something to laugh at

Q:What Kind of dog tells time?

A: A watch dog

Hah I bet you are laughing to..because I am rolling on the floor laughing my ass off and somehow still managing to type. ;)

I will write to you all tomorrow.

Goodbye Colby GLHF!!

Hey there strangers..how is it going?

So this is going to be short and precise. I have to wish Colby a good luck and a wonderful summer ahead of him.He is moving to Wisconsin for the summer for some kinda job (which I don't know about). We gave him his farewell party yesterday as he was supposed to leave today but now he is going to be leaving first thing in the morning.

Hey Colby I know you will do great keep smiling, stay awesome and just rock your god damn job and then when fall comes we are gonna resume the shit loads of parties/fun we have had this semester. So buddy take care and have fun and good luck from my side!!!

And I am going to post this link to your FB and you better give it a read!!!LoL jk.

Wow what a Tuesday I had!!

Hey there strangers..hows it going?

Well I guess I am back to my little happy world today.Ha ha. So I had like the best ever start to Tuesday.Right in the morning there was an e-mail waiting for me to tell me that Clemson University has offered me a 3k USD scholarship for the next year.As soon as I got this news I called my dad and mom straight away and talked to them. I guess they were happy, and to make my parents proud of me is what I have always wanted and this I hope is one little step in that direction.

Now moving on to something else.Something that kind of hurt me a bit that everyone knew but me.Guess I am not in the circle.Wow that was bit of a shock.What was it let's just leave it and not delve into that too much as I really do not want to dent my really happy and jovial mood , because the things are gonna come back to that bloody hidden post.

Moving on so I have a test tomorrow and ummmm I am kind of prepared for it but not really looking forward to it.Anyways you all have a good night and sleep tight.

And I know most of you(I am talking like this blog has 1000 readers when it does not have anybody except me I guess) read it for the end.

Q:What did the letter tell the stamps?

A:Stick with me and we will go places.

Funny ain't it?

Give me something to cheer about..will you?

After an awesome Sunday came like the worst Monday.I woke up all sore and skipped classes.Then had a big huge lab final and spent all of my day on it, also got back one of my test grades which sucked big time.

Well I don't wanna talk about what I did or what I did not do today all I want to do is write whatever some to mind right now.I am kind of sad, actually no I am sad.You know there is one post in this blog that can only be ever seen by me as I am never going to publish it but really that post sums it up all and there is another reason and sometimes on random days like these I only ever wish for one thing (for she can be with me )and one thing only and ask myself -

Why can't she see? What is the damn problem!!

Yeah filled with anger and sadness with almost tears in my eyes I think I will sleep now.

Goodnight Folks and before I forget

Q:What goes up but never comes down?

A:Well it's you age

Funny ain't it?

Whoa...today really was fun :D

Hey there strangers I am just going to cut the crap and get straight to the point here.Today was one of the most awesomest day ever. Early in the morning we went to church with our friends Nora,Heather(the birthday girl) and Adrienne.We went there because they wanted us to go and i was easter Sunday so they wanted us to join in the easter spirit.It was my first time in a church and damn I gotta say that was the coolest church ever(not that I have been to any other churches) but it was so not the stereotypical church which I used to see in the movies.They called it the 'bubble' because it really looked like one.So when I went there it was like so awesome, turns out everybody who those three girls knew,actually knew us by our alphabet names ABCD which was kind of cool.So I attended service there which again was a first for me and it's good to know about religions other than yours and by god I gotta say Adrienne is really a great singer.So after church we went to play volleyball and ultimate Frisbee with the people we met there and they were all so cool and friendly and got along so well.They have to be one of the jolliest bunch of people I ever met.

Then after volleyball it was time for the most fun even of the night... the easter egg hunt.So we had to find eggs made out of plastic and there we candies in them.Everyone was running around frantically and trying to find eggs.It was so awesome.

Then we went to the birthday girls house and had a Bar-b-Que.Heather cut her cookie cake(or in other words yummy cake)and and we sang her 'Happy Birthdah' and then it was time for the photo session which was so much fun you know,like we were making funniest faces ever and clicking pictures and laughing.

So form all the above activities it is pretty obvious that I am tired as heck and want to sleep real bad but before that I will wish Heather a very happy,joyous and a perfect year ahead.All three of them are so awesome and jolly and happy people and I hope we can be friends forever.

Goodnight Folks!!

Happy birthday Heather and a Happy Easter

Hey there strangers.. how is it going?

Well so the start of today was really awesome and we shall talk about it later but first things first let me wish Heather (she is our neighbor) a very happy 22nd birthday and I really sucked at giving her a toast so I might as well write it here.OK so here it is I first met her when we had like 2 large pizzas and invited them over.She is like one of the happiest faces around who just keeps laughing.She is also one of the sweetest person I have ever met who has such a charming personality and I wish her all the best in whatever she does and god bless her.

So we celebrated her birthday at our place. We had a cake and decorations and sang her happy birthday. Also today is a festival called Easter, it's a Christan festival and I have never celebrated it so we are gonna celebrate that festival today and do an Easter Egg hunt which sounds so much fun and I am really looking forward to it.Also we will be going to church today.So today sounds fun doesn't it??

Now what all we actually do today is obviously going to be written in a post tomorrow so till then you all have a good night and sleep tight and once again I wish Heather a very happy birthday.

Oh and here is your corny joke.. you know I will never forget that now.. will I??

Q:Why are fish so easy to weigh?

A:Because they have their own scales

Funny ain't it?

No motivation to go to class

Hey there strangers.. hows it going?

Well it seems like I have no motivation to go to class anymore.I skipped math class today and instead went to Taco Bell for lunch. How good is that ?

I haven't actually written for a while but hey exactly 30 days from now I will be seeing my parents and I am so excited that I mention it in every post I write.Finals are fast approaching and I have a midterm tomorrow and one on Friday and I have had about 7 midterms this whole month of April which is about 3 per week till now and I want a break.We'll see about that break after the finals though.

Anyways goodnight, sleep tight.

and here is your joke

Q:Why did the moron climb a glass wall?

A: To see what was on the other side.

Funny ain't it?

Someone stop me now(from eating pizza and burger)!!

Hey there strangers? Hows it going?

OK now someone needs to stop me before I blow up all my money on pizza. Dang it ever since I came to the USA I must have had like a ton of pizza by weight hey and not to mention the uncountable number of McChicken burgers from McDonald's. Whew take for instance today, I had 3 McChicken for lunch and a full (but totally awesome) pan pizza from Pizza Hut for dinner and not only that I got myself one pizza for tomorrows lunch too and guess what I am still not getting fat :P . Somehow I think I have the god damn urge to have these stupid junk foods all the time now and I want to eat less of my own cooking. There you go one more reason for me to be looking forward for my parents to be here. It will be a good change for me when my mom(and trust me she is the world's awesomest cook) cooks food for me for at least three weeks, I am sure it will urge me more to eat my cooking as it will be a change of hands that cook food and as no two people can never cook the same tasting food I will totally relish my moms cooking.

Oh well no corny joke today for you to read as I say goodnight, sleep tight and have a great Tuesday :)